Disappointment and burnout:
The show wasn’t as much of a slam dunk. Lots of factors played into lack of traffic in my end of the row (partly because I was in the very back of the show unfortunately - but I wasn’t when I originally signed up, sigh). I had a huge build up before the big show where our Heart 2 Art Periscope show created a worldwide, supportive community where we conducted interviews at the show (watch here) and held a fun happy hour event. It was thrilling to meet all the viewers in person and it energized the show for me. But the anti-climatic ending was crushing. The few leads and potential deals I had didn’t go through (that happens unfortunately), follow up and submissions didn’t go any where and I didn’t see a return on my investment. Our Periscope show ended too. I took some time off from the industry after that. I needed a break. Fortunately I did get a couple of smaller deals early in 2017 and it kept hope alive for me.
Things took a turn:
The following year my elderly mom’s health took a turn and she passed in the fall. I officially took off 2018, working minimally. After much healing, support and self care I found myself making art again in late summer of 2018. I wanted to work on my art style, try new techniques and give myself a project to work towards (read about it here). I opened my online store in time for the holidays with my new art on products such as original art, home decor items and art prints. I started to feel like the fog was lifting more and more and decided it was time to get back into exhibiting this year. This time it was different - I didn’t have any expectations, wanted it to be fun, create work I love and enjoy the show. Just being there was a big deal for me and I knew it meant a fresh start. It was all that and more and I am so glad I did it.